hen I was 8 years old, I sat at the side of the pool at a friend's birthday party because I didn't like the way I looked in my bathing suit.
For 18 years following that, not much changed. I looked in the mirror, unhappy with what I saw. I covered up at the beach, I stressed about what I ate, I pulled myself so low.
Until my husband finally said to me, "Hey, you know what's really unattractive? The way you talk to yourself."
It was a wake up call. It was the moment I realized I needed to make a change. Because of course I want my husband to find me attractive. So I stood in front of the mirror and I forced myself to say only positive things. Every time a negative thought came into my head, I quickly replaced it with a positive.
I will never pretend that this is easy. In fact, it's one of the hardest things I have ever done - and the work will never stop.
One year ago, I shot my first boudoir session. I was so nervous about what negative thoughts it would trigger, the way I would compare and talk to myself.
And one year later, all I can say is this has been the most empowering experience. An opportunity for us all to realize we are human, we are beautiful, we all have flaws and imperfections and those are the things that make us who we are.
If you have ever experienced self-doubt, insecurity, comparison fatigue, then these sessions may just be the door to the next part of your life.
I am SO overwhelmed with joy, power, and love with these photos!!!!! I can't believe this is me. Carly - you did such an amazing job. I am truly speechless as to how I feel and look.
THank you so much for doing the session today. You were amazingly helpful and really helped me feel comfortable and confident in what i was doing!
this was the best experience. Everyone keeps asking me if it was awkward and i said OMG no way. Carly made me feel beautiful.